Happy Ramadan

Happy Ramadan!!

Here comes Ramadan with its holy atmosphere, calm nature and desirable religious environment. All people wait for this month from year to year hoping that Allah would forgive them for all their deeds, sin and mistakes. I guess that Ramadan should be only the begining of having this atomsphree all the time as we can sustain to fear Allah and do good deeds during entire year , not only in Ramadan.

One of the funniest things is that we have acquired almost all of Ramadan tradition like (Fanos, Konafa, Kataeef ...etc) from Fatimeen Age when they ruled Egypt. Purpose of Ramadan fasting is that all people should have same feeling poor people having to motivate rich people to help poor ones. But, what happens in Egypt is like a sarcam, Egypt spends more than $ 35 Billion during Ramadan only on F&B ( Food & Beverage).... IMAGINE

Oh, allah, please forgive me and the whole entire moslem world for our mistakes. Amen!!

One of the poems I wrote for my dead father

Hard to explain

It’s hard for me to explain my anguish, fear and pain

To see my life going in vain

There were such memorable moments in my life

Wishing my dad was alive

Kidding, joking and caring for me till death

But I am feeling wrath

I’m left alone in life to survive

hoping my beloved ones were alive

Again and again, it is hard to explain my anguish, fear and pain

Within no excuse why beautiful things in life never sustain

An Interesting Poem written by me in 2008

Depression

Through my life, I have been searching for love, passion and care while in life it is rare.

When I am down, I need unconditional love having no explain to why, when and where?

I need a love that can sustain whether I am here or away

But life never let love forever stay.

My heart gets hurt to see how humanity begins to be

Hatred, conquest and killing for no reason

As if killing each other controlled by a devilish demon.

Now, I realize my urgent need for love.

But finding it is tough.

Every time I try to find somebody to love and care, I find her going away.

And my heart splits astray.

Every one is going away and I do not know what to say.

So, I need to know what to do now.

I need somebody to tell me how.

I feel great pressure on me

finding nothing beautiful to see.

Oh, I need love and I know finding it is tough.

Oh, I need only care and feel it is enough.

But none is available.

Yes, life is tough.

Lonliness or False Friendship... Which is Better

Lonliness or False Friendship, which is better!! weird & confusing question. Let me tell you a short story about myself to better understand this topic. During my childhood, I was one of those people who would not get to know lots of friends as I was a kind of introvent person. By time, that changed somehow and I started making friendships with lots of poeple, peers and colleagues thinking that i am on the right track. I was initially shocked with a friend attitude around 8 yrs ago when I was actually hurts psychologically & physically cuz of him. Still, i decided to be more optimistic and convinced myself that not all people are like him and that they're good people out there; it's just i need to find them. Clearly, I was mistaken in my approach for the 2nd time in row. I made one of the friendships with a close friends and thought of it as unbreakble one. Amazingly, It turned out that I was not correct as I was being alienated and isolated from him for no clear reason.

Situation itself was not as effective as my disappointment was as I lost my belief in the person. As for me at the present time, I would go for lonliness as an option for now to have some peace of mind. THEN, IF I DECIDE TO MAKE FRIENDSHIP, THAT WOULD BE A LONG PROCESS OF TESTS ADN CHOICES.....

Do you agree that Lonliness is the right option in this world of no friendship and uncertainity. Please share your thouhgt and ideas with me.... May Be one of you have an answer for my questions!!!!!!!